valentines day surprises, things that are making me anxious, and weekly wishes.

happy monday everyone! 

so, friday was valentines day. 

and theres something you need to know about james and i: we are NOT the kind of couple thats any good at anything even remotely related to being romantic. i mean, this is how we met. we've been to the movies together exactly four times and half of them were before we got married. we only started going on fancy dress-up dates like a year ago. so, all i really wanted/expected out of valentines day was a stop at our favorite revolving sushi bar, preferably without alice. and that did happen. 

but what i didn't expect, was for james to go completely above and beyond and way uncharacteristically overboard with romantic gestures for basically the entire week. 

first off, he made this:

on the huge, empty wall of our bedroom. 

then, he completely re-arranged the living room, not in some stupid inefficient arrangement just because he was bored, but to give me an awesome and totally functional workspace:

which was basically the most romantic thing i could even ask for, given that i haven't had any kind of workspace since we lived in arizona. 

plus, when i got up friday morning there were roses on the table:

and, you know, he still took me for revolving sushi (which, in my opinion, is the very best kind of sushi). so, that was our valentines day. thanks james, you sure know how to make a lady feel special (and way to make my card look totally pathetic in comparison). 

enough about valentines day though, lets get in to this weeks weekly wishes. basically this week i only have one (besides continuing to work on my monthly goal of deep cleaning the apartment):

don't spend the entire week as an anxious and emotional wreck. 

see, i have two things making me really, really anxious this week, one is kind of silly and the other is a bit more serious/important. lets start with the silly one:

so, my oh so wonderful mother generously bought me a ticket to go to the oc blogger brunch that melyssa of the nectar collective is hosting on saturday. on the one hand, I'm SUPER excited to meet melyssa and all the other bloggers in real life and i know its going to be really fun. on the other hand, i have REALLY bad social anxiety and the fact that I'm going to this thing ALONE is totally freaking me out.

and when i say "really bad social anxiety" i don't mean like i don't enjoy talking to strangers. i mean like i GO OUT OF MY WAY to not have to talk to people i know on the phone (and don't get me started about calling strangers!). i mean like more than once I've had a full blown panic attack at our church christmas party. i mean like one time my mom offered me FIFTY DOLLARS to go to my neighbors halloween party and introduce myself to three people, and i said HELL NO. i mean like the only person i talk to at church (the church I've gone to since i was TEN) is my mom. 

now I'm driving 40+ minutes away to go have brunch with a whole group of strangers (that are all surely cooler and more interesting and have better blogs than me) ALL BY MYSELF and I'm terrified. but obviously I'm going to do it anyway because i need more real life friends. 

also, I'm totally freaking out about what i should wear, but I'm sure ill figure that out...

now for the bigger, more important thing thats making me anxious:

james has a third interview for a really, really, REALLY great job at a fantastic company in our neighborhood. I've mentioned before that james has hardly had any work in the past few months, right? well, this new job would be a totally normal, 40 hour week, every week (plus a shorter bike commute for james), and it would be a HUGE relief to all of us if he were to get hired.  

the thing is though that their hiring process has been painfully slow. his first phone interview was almost a month ago, and his second interview was last thursday. the suspense is killing me because i can not stand suspense. especially when a really awesome job that basically solves all our current problems is on the line. 

and to make things extra weird, today he's working at his regular job (for the first time in over a month). so, prayers in this department would be greatly appreciated. 

thats whats going on over here right now. what are your plans this week?